Monday is the big day

This will probably be my last post before my surgery. I'm nervous but that's to be expected. But for some reason I'm more nervous for this surgery than I was my past ones. I'm worried about dying in the operating room. I don't know why. Maybe it's because I have more to live for now. I'm also concerned about waking up from the surgery and the Dr. telling me that the cancer has spread and I've only got a short time to live.

Hopefully everything will be OK though. Hopefully in 2 months I'll be back to normal, drinking beer and being a pain in the ass to my wife. I'm not scared of dying but I am scared of not being there for my son. That's the scariest part of it. The thought of not being with my son is the most dreadful thing I can think of. Hopefully it doesn't come to that.

If you're the praying type I could definitely use the prayers.

Checkin in

Not much new going on. The wife took a leave of absence from her work so we could get some things done before surgery. Mainly get a good deep cleaning of the house done. I'm finally sleeping a bit better. My attitude is better too. I'm optimistic that within 3-4 months I'll be good as new. Except for a new scar or 2, but that's OK, it'll just match the ones I already have.

Changing subjects, I've always been an American car fan but the little Nissan that my Father-in-law loaned me is making me rethink a little. This thing has almost 200,000 miles on it, it hasn't had the oil changed in 50,000 miles and recently had been parked for 3 months. I needed to move it today and was expecting to have to jump start it but once again this tough little sumbitch surprised me. I put the key in and the thing started up like I'd driven it yesterday. In case you're asking why the oil hasn't been changed, when I borrowed it Kim's Dad said NOT to change the oil as it might "knock something loose" and screw it up. It leaks a little bit of oil so just keep it topped off.

OK, it's his car so I reckon I'll do what he wants. Although he recently said we can have it so I'm thinking I might take it to my mechanic and have him go through it and replace and/or repair anything that needs it and drive the damn thing until the wheels fall off.

Here's a couple pics of "Ole ugly"

Surdery scheduled

I have surgery scheduled for the 25th of June. They plan on taking out my right kidney. The tumor is approximately 7cm which is borderline between stage 1 and stage 2 cancer. I have a higher chance of survival if it's still stage 1 but due to my age I still have a good chance even if it's stage 2. The 2 most common places for kidney cancer to spread to is the lungs and liver and both are clear so it looks like they got it before it spread.

We went to Oklahoma City yesterday to go to the VA there. It was in the worst part of town. And the highways in Oklahoma are messed up. The toll roads are a friggin rip off. We stayed at an Econo-lodge in Chandler Oklahoma last night and got back home about 2 or so. It's nice to be home. I'm looking forward to sleeping in my bed again. The beds at the Econo-lodge were hard but the hotel was reasonably clean so it was OK.

More later

Checking in

I'm still not sleeping good but I have an app't today with the shrink at VA. Hopefully she'll be able to do something. I got done with classes at school. I still have some online classes to do and my externship but I'm gonna wait until I get this kidney thing taken care of. We bought a new recliner for me to sit in while I'm recovering. I should be able to pick it up today. I can't wait, it's a soft leather one. Got it on sale, it's usually $899 but it's being discontinued and so we got it for $549. Not bad. It is so comfortable. More later.